-My Only Love- (poem)

My only love. Love at first sight.
The way she shines, it bust be sure
that she is my Mrs. Right,
for me to secure.

Her style, her color, her smell,
a fad that everyone chases.
Her brand everyone could tell,
surounded by circles of praises.

Then another season falls,
and so changes the trend.
Vivienne Westwood, Gucci, or Dior?
My only love? Just a second. The end.

(((My Only Love)))

My only love? Is that possible or is that illusion. In the past, maybe my only love is easier to find. Just like your clothes, your watch, your house, your TV. Everything you will use until they are worn out. Because tradition is tradition. There is no trend. And clothes, watch or anything else will not change - they are just for use. Same as your love, he/she is just for money/housework. In the past, there may not be only love, because there is not much love. There is only a wife, and a need.

Now? People start talking about love. Not just love but only love. But it is no longer possible, because people are like goods, just as goods are like people. How often you buy new clothes, watches, shoes, mobiles, TV, glasses. Or even a house? They are no longer merely what they are. They are a status, a trend, a greed, a want. Just like your love. This second, he is your only love. But the next second? There is already a thousand of new possible love turning around you. Different brands. Different purposes. Different trends. Not even can you treat your objects with one heart. How can you treat a person as your only love?

To conclude, it is our shopping habits that affect our loving pattern. It is not your fault or your partner's fault if he cannot love you only. It is just a shopping habit. Not a big deal. So don't get too upset if you get dumped. It is nothing more than a TREND.

AnGeLa BaBy Forever

HEART * AnGeLa BaBy

My Boss & Me

This is so FuNny. So TrUe. So IrOnIc.

我與上司的差別

當我花多一點時間──────我是遲鈍
當我的上司花多一點時間───他是謹慎

當我不想做事──────我是怠惰
當我的上司不想做事───他是太忙

當我自發做不是交辦事情───我是越界
換我上司做同樣的事─────他是創新

當我忽視小禮節───我是粗魯
換我上司忽視────他是大方不拘小節

當我配合上司───────我是拍馬屁
換我上司討好他的上司───他是配合

當我開會時發言───我是多嘴
換我上司發言────他是發表高見

當我堅持立場────────我是頑固
換我上司採取同樣的立場───他是有原則

當我努力上進──────我是愛表現
我上司有同樣的表現───他是勤勞打拼

當我精神奕奕───────我是裝模作樣
換我上司有同樣的表現───他是渾身是勁

當我發燒唔舒服──────咋病
當我的上司發燒唔舒服───捱病

當我化妝扮靚──────發姣
當我的上司化妝扮靚───內外兼備

為什麼會有這麼大的差別 !!!

The Genius Cook >3<

Chocolate Cheese Cake!
My first father's day cake, but it became a birthday cake :) Baking a cake is really not easy. Tiring mixing all the cream cheese and chocolate. I think it was a bit too cheesy, but then the outlook was attractive isn't it? This is already a very good cake as a first one. Glad to know that my friend likes it XD





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Siukwan's Recipe Try Out - ROUND 1!



Sweet Egg Pudding!
Always wanted to make something, and today I finally got the time to! I chose this dessert as a drill (because it was quite easy to make). Luckily I didn't screw up. And I tried, it tasted wonderful!!! Not too sweet, not too heavy.





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Japanese Summer Salad!
My summer time favorite snack. Healthy. Light. Yummy. See how colorful it was! XD
I even used my secret Mayonnaise recipe. Even more yummy!!! Try it at home yourself. It was very simple to make!





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Vegetarian Shark Fin!
Last but not least, my dad's favorite as a promise I owed during father's day. A little bit too thick, there is still room for improvement. The taste and the outlook passed though right?? XD Um,,my conclusion? I am a cooking beauty
(= V =)!

A Snake's Career

Rich in wisdom and charm, you are romantic and deep thinking and your intuition guides you strongly. Avoid procrastination and your stingy attitude towards money. Keep your sense of humor about life. The Snake would be most content as a teacher, philosopher, writer, psychiatrist, and fortune teller.

Wants and Needs

You may want money,
But actually what you need is happiness

You may want to be loved
But actually what you need is love

You may want a house,
But actually what you need is a home

You may want a phone,
But actually what you need is a listener

You may want sex
But actually what you need is a partner

You may want a lover,
But actually what you need is a husband

When we were young, we always want a lot. Toys, snacks, food, stories, pets. We are shadowed in the illusion of what we want is what we need. What we want is what we should have in order for us to be happy.

As we grow, we will discover that we have been blinded by this illusion. We do not chase after wants, we chase after needs. Once you have the power to turn your wants into needs, then you become happy. You become in peace with yourself. You become indifference to death. Because your life is already what you want. Needs can satisfy you more than wants (If you have the right needs in mind).

You need achievement. You need knowledge. You need love. You need acknowledgement. You need friendship. You need food. You need safety. You need comfort. You need confidence. You need happiness. You need excitement.

These needs cause wants. You want to be beautiful. You want to be successful. You want to be a millionaire. You want to socialize. You want different games and toys. You want to have a high quality of life.

But if you are just able to see the wants but not needs, you will be out of track. And eventually, you will be chasing after something wrong/extreme: money, fame, status, weight. You sacrifice what you need for what you think you wanted. Life become miserable. And happiness is away from you forever.

A Cup Can Be Half Full

Happy Father's Day. On this day filled with love and warmth, there will be someone in the world feeling sad. I just read a youtube comment "15 June is the memorance of a girl kidnapped and raped by her father for 15 years." I deeply felt the meaning of "where there is happiness, there is sadness; where there is love, there is hatred". I can understand how it feels to be left out by the world, to be the unlucky one. The taste of envy is sour. But it is stupid to think that you are the most unlucky in the world after a wound. We must learn to heal ourselves, then others, after every obstacle or difficulty. It is stupid to turn a happy father's day into a curse just because of your personal experience. Forget about the past. And start over. This is what you can control at this point.

I once wrote, there are four kinds of people on the world. Ones who are blissed, and are thankful. Onces who are blissed, but are ignorant about it. Once who are unlucky, but strive to survive. Once who are unlucky and grumble about it. Be the third kind. Treasure your life that are short as a shooting star. What you feel is actually subjective, and you can change your mindset if you want to. Have a new attitude. Enjoy what you have. Fight for what you lack. Be what you want to be. A happy person.

My classmate's father has a point there. The most important thing for decision making is to know yourself. Understand your values and point of views. The reason why we feel confused is because there are too much information, too much options. We can limit the scope of options if we know our values and understand ourselves. What we treasure? What we care? This is a major principle for living a full life.

The more I experience, the more I understand myself. I start to know my motivation to study. It is because of the satisfaction I got from the grades, the sense of achievement. Working now, I sometimes felt content, sometimes felt bored. It is because the result of what I do may not be immediate all the time. My boss may give me a pat on the back once in a while. But then, some tasks like to research for the world's private equity companies and compile a list, the result maybe years later (well, just a bit of exaggeration). Is my motivation only based on this sense of achievement I got from others? What I do is only due to others? To me, it seems risky this way.

Motto: A cup half drank can be half full. A piece of cheese can have up and down.

Home. Study. HK. US.

Back to work after a long weekend due to Dragon Boat Festival. Nothing too exciting during the weekend, exactly what I needed. A little shopping with my mum. A relaxing message in China with my family. A sumptuous meal.

I have been home for about a month. But it seems I have never left. I am so used to being with my parents, so used to home. The more I think about life in USA, the more it seems impossible to me. How can I stand this all alone? How can I live without protection? Well, I should know, when it happens, everything is possible. No matter how tired you are, you need to stay strong and move on with life. That's why I always believe in marriage. Because it gives you a home, a place to rest.

The more I get used to life in HK, the more fearful I become. I am afraid that one day this vacation will end. And the day is coming sooner and soomer everyday. It is just like back to reality, like midnight for Cinderella. Afterall it is all a dream, and it cannot last forever. I always remind myself these days, to recall memories in Michigan. To remind myself not to be too laid back, too dependent, too relaxed. Because one day, you will have to go.

Back to Hong Kong, I lost my ability to write what I feel again. Maybe I never know how I feel in Hong Kong. I never have time to think about that. Everyday the same things just happen for everyone around you. And also, the same things to you. Then, you will start to hynotize yourself until you don't feel anything. Just living every day like a robot. But, at least I feel completed at home. At least I feel home.

Day by day, the result for Business School is closer to be revealed. Please stop tormenting and torturing me. Please stop haunting me every night. No matter what, at this point, I just wish to know the result as soon as possible. Because waiting is such a pain. Yet, the only thing I can do right now is wait. I have tried my best. And I really believe God will do the rest. No matter what the result is, I will be happy. Because either way is a light from God, that show me the way to the future. That descide what shall I do.

生命靈數

你是一個講究均衡的人，個性不會太衝動，不管在人際上，生活上和工作上，凡事都喜歡按部就班慢慢來，並且保持一種均衡狀態。當然你也有自己的一套方法，不喜歡受人牽制，感情也是一樣。

　　你很重視合作關係，希望找到氣味相投的伴侶，不一定是感情上的伴侶，也有可能是旗鼓相當的工作夥伴，雖然工作夥伴不見得對你有很大的實質助力，但是在生命的歴程中，有這種夥伴的陪同，更能加強自信心，填補精神的空虛，創造生命的幸福與成功。
　　你的生命目標是重視學以致用，以及發揮自己的才能和特質，因此你適合是一個專注研究學習的人，但不一定當一輩子的學者，只要能夠學以致用就很圓滿了。提醒你無論是學習、思考或研究，如何能夠發揮所學的長才，將理論落實到實際上，才是你的生命目標喔！
　　你的個性特徵是比較內斂、沉穩，常常一個人在思考，然後會編出自己的一套理論、想法，或是一套原則，因此很適合研究一些規則性的東西。你其實不是不喜歡和人說話，只是當你在思考的時候不會去管到別人，因此有時在別人眼中是個常常自言自語的怪人喔！
　　你的優點是處事很有原則，並且非常的理性，思考非常細膩，並且可以用不同的表現方式讓別人明白。你的缺點是有時候不太能夠變通，執著於自己的想法，不會主動去關心別人，也不太會與人相處，常常情緒無法抒發，是個學者型的人。
　　建議你多多練習人際關係，比如針對不同年齡的對象用不同的方式去溝通，並且讓彼此都能接受，傳達彼此的感情與訊息，要知道他人的反應是自己的一面鏡子喔，你可以從周遭人的反應來調整自己，讓自己更受人歡迎。
　　你的人生運勢蠻平穩的，通常是比較孤獨的一個人，因為你比較重視頭腦裡面的東西，以及穩定的生活，並且會靜靜等待發揮的時機，如果你的好時機一到，所學的東西就能夠通通發揮出來。那是因為你缺少主動積極創造運勢的衝勁，因此在你進入職場工作以後，升遷、升級都要等待幸運之神的降臨了。
　　你的天賦潛能就是研究精神和學習能力，因此不論是那一種新科技或那一個專業領域，你都能夠學有所成，並且學以致用。

~HOMEPAGE~

A weary body after weekend :)

I dragged my weary body and broken feet to work today. So not want to go to work. But I would not skip my responsibilities for no reason. Yesterday night, there was a loud thunder at midnight that woke me. I couldn't sleep well after that.

This weekend was tiring. But it was the happiest, most meaningful weekend ever since I came back home. Saturday, I went to a HKCC charity performance as a volunteer helper. Years, I haven't seen a performance like this. Years, I haven't meet those people. Years, I haven't step my foot on stage. Years, not spotted my light. Years, I haven't been MC. Years, I haven't sing with all my heart, just to make people and myself smile. For years and years. It all came back just within the second.

I miss them. I miss singing. I miss the applaud. I miss the feeling with my feet on the stage. I miss being spotted by the brightest light, giving my brightest smile. I cannot believe how this all ended so casually in the past. Without a word. Without a sound. Then I left HKCC, I left HK. All so quietly, so still. I couldn't believe that I can hide my inner feelings so well. Why, why would I do this to myself.

The children are still so sweet. And I realize how long I haven't been talking to children for so long. Holding their hands, tucking their shirts, touching their heads and faces. Listening to their voices.

Saturday, I bought a 2005 Musical DVD at last. And I listen to our voice at midnight, after the 60 Anniversary School Music and Speech Festival Concert. Although I was so tired, I still couldn't resist to watch the DVD, just to hear the voice. Our voice.

Sunday, I went to Wetland Park for HKYA Stationing. I was so tired last night, even expect myself to doze a little during stationing. But I did not. The stationing was more fun then I expected, and I meet 3 new people. I enjoy chatting with people I newly met. Maybe I believe it is destiny that we met, thus we should cherish our times together. I don't want another regret in the future.

Not only did the children I talked to had fun, I myself had a lot of fun. Just like a silly little child. But I was happy. Have not been so happy like that for long. I really enjoy being a child. Wish that I would never grow up. But time passes every day. And responsibilities grow. Rules emerge. You need to stick to many expectations I believe.

I am looking forward to my other weekends.