Home. Study. HK. US.

Back to work after a long weekend due to Dragon Boat Festival. Nothing too exciting during the weekend, exactly what I needed. A little shopping with my mum. A relaxing message in China with my family. A sumptuous meal.

I have been home for about a month. But it seems I have never left. I am so used to being with my parents, so used to home. The more I think about life in USA, the more it seems impossible to me. How can I stand this all alone? How can I live without protection? Well, I should know, when it happens, everything is possible. No matter how tired you are, you need to stay strong and move on with life. That's why I always believe in marriage. Because it gives you a home, a place to rest.

The more I get used to life in HK, the more fearful I become. I am afraid that one day this vacation will end. And the day is coming sooner and soomer everyday. It is just like back to reality, like midnight for Cinderella. Afterall it is all a dream, and it cannot last forever. I always remind myself these days, to recall memories in Michigan. To remind myself not to be too laid back, too dependent, too relaxed. Because one day, you will have to go.

Back to Hong Kong, I lost my ability to write what I feel again. Maybe I never know how I feel in Hong Kong. I never have time to think about that. Everyday the same things just happen for everyone around you. And also, the same things to you. Then, you will start to hynotize yourself until you don't feel anything. Just living every day like a robot. But, at least I feel completed at home. At least I feel home.

Day by day, the result for Business School is closer to be revealed. Please stop tormenting and torturing me. Please stop haunting me every night. No matter what, at this point, I just wish to know the result as soon as possible. Because waiting is such a pain. Yet, the only thing I can do right now is wait. I have tried my best. And I really believe God will do the rest. No matter what the result is, I will be happy. Because either way is a light from God, that show me the way to the future. That descide what shall I do.