Currently Reading
Sense and Sensibility (Modern Library Classics)
By Jane Austen
-Quoted-
ONCE A MARYKNOLLER, FOREVER A MARYKNOLLER
Maryknoll, is a paradise where I have studied for 11 years. This is the place where I was taught how to be a lady, to be whole-rounded, to be knowledgeable, to be considerate and responsible, (and is the school which teaches good English); a place where I knew most of my friends and my best sisters in the universe. We laughed, cried, quarreled, hugged, kissed........ you list it. I shall miss the most unique, beautiful castle forever and ever and ever. The warm cozy canteen, music room J03, auditorium, 5C, courtyard, covered playground, 1D, 2E, 3A, 4C rooms, laboratories, daffodils, the renowned rhododendrons, the grassy lawn, the library, swimming pool, children's playground, basketball court, the colonnade, Mother Mary's sculpture, the haunted pine tree and basement, the stony path, Ho Tung Road- the steep slope which I climb almost every day, Flint Road, Oxford Road, Boundary Street, days when we hurried for tutorials every Tuesdays and Wednesdays, times when we fighted for the last plate of rice in the canteen, scary moments when we were told haunted stories around the campus, the yummy spaghetti, junk rice, egg salad sandwiches, McNuggets....masses, Thanksgivings, Christmases, Walkathons, 80th Anniversary, exams, Chinese new year...I shall miss them.
Look back on the days in P.1, we played skipping ropes and hide and seek during recess. I fell on the stony road and hurt my forehead so badly. I got a U (failed, that is) in my English Handwriting, chickenpox all over my body, somehow being isolated for some childish funny matters??? oh hahaha.....
Now, I am 16 and a half.....growing from 103cm to 159 cm- taller, bigger, stronger, maturer, healthier, wiser........hmm......In just 11 years we grew and blossomed. Thanks to Maryknoll, we are like flowers that grow in a greenhouse, getting all the nutrients and being protected until we are old enough to live independently. Without her, I wouldn’t be dedicating this entry to her at this moment.
And of course, I would definitely not forget 5C my dearest classmates. Being in the same class with you girls is one of the greatest pleasures I had over the years. Performances with the orchestra (and the band of course), brass ensemble, drama, Annie, posts in Muso, fashion show, Talent Quests, having lunch in Kowloon City and ballcourt ......although I may not be helpful or 'useful' as some of you may think so, all these sweet memories will be all kept in my mind.
Last Friday we had the coolest Literature class on the lawn, sitting in a big circle and working on poems....cool breeze, warm sun and the grass made me feel so comfortable... if we had classes like this.......hmm..how idealistic.
Welcome to my palace*
- PrInCeToNgIrL
- +RoYaLe in Heart+ :) PrInCeToNgIrL is so sentimental, and she always get strong feelings and emotions. In the past, she'd try to hide them. However, she discovers that the more you try to hide them, the more vivid they are. So, be brave and rock the world, gal!~Write all your thoughts with your hand, sing all your mind with your soul~xoxoxox +About the PrInCeSs+: ~Perfectionist but too demanding ~Emotional but cannot empathize other's emotion ~Practical but love to Dream ~Independent but desperate for a hand ~Intuitive but too judging ~Can understand theories of life but cannot act on them
Sunday, November 26, 2006
A Paradise
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Inspiring Parable
I used to think that a parable is more or less the same as a story, maybe even a little more boring. It is until recently that I discovered I was so wrong to think that way. A parable gives you faith, happiness, light, and you are connected with God at that wee moment you are reading. A beautifully written parable is so powerful and strong that it could even heal your heart. It washes away all your worries, confusion, and pain...
Being able to read a parable and understand it is a blessing, and we should share it~
The Pencil Parable
In the beginning, the Pencil Maker spoke to the pencil saying, "There are five things you need to know before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and you will become the best pencil you can be."
First, you will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in someone’s hand. Second, you will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but this is required if you are to become a better pencil. Third, you have the ability to correct any mistakes you might make. Fourth, the most important part of you will always be what's inside. Lastly, No matter what the condition, you must continue to write. You must always leave a clear, legible mark no matter how difficult the situation. The pencil understood, promising to remember, and went into the box fully understanding its Maker's purpose.
Now replacing the place of the pencil with you; always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be. First, you will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess. Second, you will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person. Third, you will be able to correct mistakes you might make or grow through them. Fourth, the most important part of you will always be what's on the inside. And lastly, on every surface you walk, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to serve God in everything.
Everyone is like a pencil...created by the Maker for a unique and special purpose. By understanding and remembering, let us proceed with our life on this earth having a meaningful purpose in our heart and a relationship with God daily. YOU WERE MADE TO DO GREAT THINGS!~
I saw two inspiring passages from my friends xanga too, sometimes I feel that words are like food..we are desperate for it, it is necessary for us to live.."If word be the food of knowledge, write on"...hahaha* here comes Shakespeare of the century*
Quoted--
Death, Note Payable or Receivable!?
Somehow, accounting theory can actually apply to death. Life is either liability or asset, in my perspective. It depends on our performances. No one can abscond passing out, and we never not too sure about the date. One day, God will ask how well you did when you were alive. Let say you did do well, then congratulations! Because you've already gained a lot in life (You have your assets). Ending life journey is no longer a big deal. You are ready to go at anytime! (opps!) What if you did nothing in terms of contribution? (and you even wasted your life!) Then you will regret when the day has come.
Note...it's something you wrote down, It's a commitment.
So do treasure life, don't ruin the commitment. Or else death will become note payable.
Sometimes, necessity is extravagant. Necessary Evil, that's what we call it. For instance, I took a taxi because I didn't want to keep my friends waiting. It's luxurious, but it's essential to do so.
Sometimes, luxury is necessary. It puts colors on dull and dumb lives. For example, I spent a superb, 'salivary' time accompanied by friends with bowls of beer. Maybe it's kind of extravagant. However, from my point of view, it's essential indeed. Nonetheless, every choice has its price. My head is damn hurt now!
I have a Dream
Today, I did nothing again*
I really hate the kind of life I am leading right now~
Losing myself, fitting to the surrounding environment, and not doing the things I'd love to do*
I am tired of fitting myself in the environment to struggle for survival, I want adventure and excitement. Although I may not success in this way, but who cares. Living my life this way is already self suicide. I hate knowing what I would do, and where I would go every second in my life.
If you ask me, life certainly doesn't go that way.
It always hits me inside my heart, when I saw movies about a person willing to give up everything and changed incredibly regarding his personality for another thing or person. That is what I want to be, having this courage, determination, and will power. I am longing for that something to appear and to change my whole life.
Well, I hope someday, I would find something really important to me, and I will let go all the things I have for it.
Hope I could find my dream and fly )))*
The Story of a Maryknoller
The Story of My Life
"There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time
when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost,
the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue.
The truth is I've always been a fool."
Got these from my friend’s xanga.
Reading her xanga made me have a wee bit of regret for leaving my school. My school is such a wonderful place that nurtured me and gave me life.
A thought slipped in my mind for a second, that maybe I would lead a happier life if I stayed.
This is certainly an evil mind, and I wish it gone.
Quoted—
4 days later I'll be a good girl again, oulala. Now that 5 months have elapsed and I've never thought of going to school again in 4 days. I am so excited yet feeling so nervous!!!!! Yes I miss the campus and I do look forward to going school, but can I just have one more month of vacation? I dont feel want to fill myself with those dull knowledge, THAT subject I hate, now I am a bit regret to take Economics. I HATE IT.
As an optimist, the coming school year should be fun, the reason is simple: I can finally get rid of Accounts and Biology. Plus it will be a more relaxing year, compare with form five, when I had to reserve 4 out of 5 school days for tutorials, and weekends for band practices and revision. Now neither do I have to solve challenging Math problems, nor 'investigating' those disgusting biological diagrams, instead I may have more time to meet up with friends, learn new things (like cooking, I know nothing about it, and I must learn to use the oven at home so I can chew cookies any time =D), watch movies, activate myself, enjoy my life...hahahahhahaa
The last week of August wasn't very nice. I know crying won't solve the whole thing, but at least I felt better. Argh, gosh Qbiez forget it, It's the past already, I HATE HAVING PIMPLES!.
I learnt a lot over the holidays, in which some of my fresh knowledge includes nasty language. Really nasty ones. I got teased always, so I have to learn from experiences! See? I am not a stupid girl anymore!!!! ahahahahhaa But don't worry, I am conscientious enough that I wont speak any of them.
But then I forgot all about English. I promised to read 100 books after CE within the year. It's the end of August now and I've only finished 3 autobiographies and 1 chicken literature and some other books I forgot- oh yes, Geisha, I finished it in some days right after Dina gave it to me as a birthday gift, I was so obsessed with it~ come on! it was April, and I was there reading Geisha while everyone was burying themselves in books?! Anyway, what I want to say is that I haven't been reading anything else since the Life of Pi (actually, I do not have the intention to finish it, but it's in the AS Literature syllabus, help!) now what I am typing now is all grammatically wrong and I don’t think I can form a perfect, completed sentences, so bear with them for a little bit longer, I'm finishing off this entry very soon! hehehehehe
Have been doing quite a lot of things these days. Boat trip, buying textbooks, uniform, shopping, practicing trumpet and piano like every day, eavesdropping, daydreaming, hea-ing, waiting, went to watch Cherry's drama (it was awesome!), and the concert at City Hall, which has nothing great to talk about, erm well, the most enjoyable time of the day was having lunch with my dearest Rosa, Sarah and Angela.oh yes, and the slumber party with Angela again and Jessica last Tuesday. It was so much fun and we were crazy and then the house just went out of electricity and then my maid came in at 4 am and asked,''what did you do to the electricity?" hahaha spent the whole night chatting, light-bulbing and watched Corpse Bride!
This year's going to be different, at school there're only one and only one of my best sister left. Dina has gone to HSSC, Rachu is still having exams in Australia, and Michelle in another class, preparing for university...a lot of my friends going to elsewhere, and in 6A, except the 5C people, it's like I don't know half of the class.welllll........
But still, Christina, I hope you are reading this, wish you all the best in your new school and go pursue your dream! Promise me no matter what happens, talk to me okay? We are always best sisters ma!!!
And Rachu! I hope you are reading this either, can you write me an email or give me a call? I miss you so much! I tried to phone you weeks ago from my home, but it was like a wrong number...and can you please fix your email account or update your Xanga? =D I can’t write you anything! and it's like we have lost contact with each other! I typed you a few words in my Gmail, but not sure if you have received it.
Cherry! You are my only soulmate in MCS la!!!! relying on you~~~ we have to take care with each other la!!! Love you love you love you!!! >3<
Those who are leaving for UK, US, Canada, Germany, Australia, (Japan, Malaysia, China, Switzerland, every corner of the world...) BEST WISHES!!
What happened to my legs recently huh? I just fell down at home again! Got stumbled by the stairs at home and got 2 big bruises on my knees and elbows >< how unlucky. And I don’t think I can take student pics this week, the pimple is still very visible.
Oh my God. My first student is a Marymount form 5, which is only a year younger than I am, and I am not eloquent at all. Plus I have no experience, I couldn’t even teach my sister how to speak better English.....hahaaaaa....and the best thing is, she's coming to my home, instead of me going to hers......What I have to do is to pass her my notes, and strategy to write an essay and that's all. well....where else can I find a job with such excellent conditions? I am way too young to earn 350 per hour as a tutor.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Movies :)
The Movies I've Watch on Thanksgiving Break
1. Breakfast at Tiffany's
About a lonely girl who is suppressing her true self, trading herself for money. But of course at last she did find true love.
2. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
This is such a great story about a pair of "magical” pants and four friends. The girls, with the pants, experienced a lot in life. Everyone has their own story to tell, which was not initially pleasant, but turn out to be the most important thing to them.
3. Just Married
It is a comedy, however, teaching people to be understanding, considerate, and never giving up.
4. The Breakfast Club
An inspiring movie about adolescence in high school. People who seem to have nothing in common can support each other when coming to a certain moment. They shared their own life in that room, and developed a kind of friendship, even love. It definitely points out the problem of peer pressure and blur identity during teenage.
5. Moulin Rouge!
A great comedy and romance. It reminds me of my French too. Je ne
These are highly recommended friend. Really want to catch up with more movies..(I am such a movie lover!! Wondering if I could end up with a job, watching movies all day long and giving comments...)
REMARKS: The spring break in the same school year: 2 days BOSTON TRIP @ TALE UNCLE HOUSE + 6 days ROYAL FLORIDA DISNEY TRIP (WITH WATER PARK ADVENTURE) featuring the fantastic 3(s) XDDD
Thursday, November 23, 2006
A Painful Truth of Life
Life is really full of obstacles right? Human are such weak souls that they are not brave enough to take up challenges in life. I am being emotional this morning (kind of aggravated),
and now that I thought it through..maybe I am being a coward. All along, I am not willing to face the challenge in front of me, and I blamed my parents for getting me to.
So, now I finally do it~ really proud of myself* =v=
I believe human grow and develop by going through and influenced by different people and events.
One momentous external influence that affected me and caused me to change direction and personality is the event of me running for the place in the Student Association in high school.
Due to personality and cultural background, I was an introvert. This made me shy and not very dare to express my ideas. In junior high school, though I had many ideas and even had a hidden intension to lead, I tended to suppress it as I was not confident enough in myself. Back then, what I mostly cared about was studying. I didn’t participate in many activities, and was a normal, well-behaved student that would not catch much attention. My turning point is when I was in the last year of high school, when I was nominated as one of the candidates for the Student Association.
That year was actually the year of a public examination, which is actually a matter of life and death to students. I am actually very stunned till now that I accepted the nomination. From that day on, I turned from a normal beyond normal book nerd to the attention of the whole student body. I was quite proud of myself actually. I think why I took up this chance is that I finally realize all my life is about studying and I was not satisfied with this. I want something different, something memorable. I felt like wasting my life to memorize useless words. Being a candidate add excitement and uncertainty to my life, which I enjoyed. Through the process of election, I have the chance to deliver my first campaign speech on stage, in front of the whole student body. Apart from gaining confidence in self, I felt like the first time I was living my life in the right way. What I was doing is to contribute my effort, gifts and talents given to me to help and serve. Although I did not succeed in the campaign, I was so grateful that I have to go through this.
This made me understand that “people need to experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems, but you'll need it to become a stronger person”.
Obstacles is actually challenges of life that makes us grow, we should be grateful for encountering problems. This is so true to me, as I became a stronger person after the catastrophe of losing in the campaign. The summer after, I practically became a new person. The person who used to stay home everyday, watching television or reading books have gone. I seem to have tons of energy in starting a new life. I was curious to everything surrounds me, I was eager to explore the world, to taste the real world and knowledge. So, I took French courses, joined singing contests, did volunteer services, gone to camps and outward-bound training etc. The weird thing was I never seem tired. The more things I had to do, the happier I was. It is like I finally found the meaning to exist in the world.
曾幾何時我們都以為自己很堅強, 什麼事我們也以為自己撐得起, 即使我們不能也會自欺,說服自己能做到以為硬要自己面對事情就不是逃避, 誰不知我們都逃避著自己的軟弱, 不肯面對我們自己的渺小到我們不能再撐的時候, 便加倍承受那痛苦 為何軟弱對人來說那麼可怕呢?人本來就是軟弱的
生命本來就充滿無奈, 我們根本就不能改變那些無奈, 要接受又不甘心, 寧可承受痛苦, 事後怨天尤人, 總好過自己什麼也不能作但是很少有人想到過, 接受了自己的軟弱又如何了?當我們積極地接受了自己的軟弱 我們就會從心態上轉變, 不會怨天尤人, 感慨減少 痛苦減少, 若我們消極 就不可以說是接受軟弱了 我們的心態改變了, 我們就可以在我們的軟弱上建成堅強, 因為像我這樣軟弱的人還有什麼可怕呢? 我們本來就只是人, 沒什麼了不起的人, 就是遇著了什麼事, 而我們要作出改變也只能盡人事而已, 這不是悲觀 而是事實,人所能作的其實有限, 其他的都只有看神的作工而已, 人若硬是要作什麼事 亦只會使事情愈弄愈糟人算什麼 憑什麼自誇 你能用思慮使壽數多加一刻, 使身量多加一肘嗎, 你也不能使一根頭髮自然地變黑變白 人的軟弱和無奈是鐵定了的事實: 我們能作的不多, 其他的唯有靠神"--永恆
What will my future be?
Having to write a personal statement suddenly make me feel that I am not that into business actually. GEE..I feel like I am a mess, why I always find it so difficult to know and understand who I truly am? Who is that girl deep inside me? I really don't know..maybe I never have known~ Isn't it good for people to have plenty of interests? I mean, I was told when I was young to learn everything and be curious in everything. I have piano and violin lessons, I sang in a choir, I draw, I spoke different languages... I believe all these were to develop me into an all rounded girl right? But it kind of changed when I grew up. Life is harsh though. When I worked so hard to build myself as the "ideal girl" for myself, my parents and the society, people suddenly changed their concept of "all roundedness". The world now requires me to choose a specific field for studying. Well, what can I say...didn't people often say that nothing in life is stable and permanent except change? This is very true indeed; I should be smart enough to reckon this as a "prophetical phrase". It is kind of ironic and ridiculous that when I was small, I totally loath the idea of all-roundedness, as I found it not manageable (as a KID) to participate in so many activities. Today, when I was given the chance to narrow down my interest, I was babbling and complaining about it. People always do that, don't they? Complaining about what they get, and asking for something more...they are never satisfied. FORGET IT..it takes time for me to truly understand myself...at this point though, I can tell you that I am interested in philosophy, psychology, management, economics, marketing. (But I don't mean that I am interested in working in those fields, NO ONE ACTUALLY LIKES WORKING, right? Maybe you can put it that way; I don't mind studying about these areas more...want to know my true and ultimate goal for my life? It is becoming someone's wife, and sitting at home all day long, either managing my household or organizing tea parties! Sounds dreamy and unpractical huh..but I still WISH it would come true)
People always have theories, and I have two now: 1. The thing you are most scared of are usually the most worthwhile to do 2. Sometimes lying maybe good if it can make someone happy, while telling the truth maybe bad if it hurts.
THEORIES...are they true? When I first thought of it, it seems to be. However, I think about it again and again, and I kind of think that nothing in the world is always true. They always change right? Think about it, theories are from people who came up to them by either having that sort of experience or hearing from others. People differ from each other by personality and experiences. So, different perspectives can make up different theories. The most important thing is to believe in yourself.
I actually watched three movies again today, but it worth my time...they are so MEANINGFUL AND INSPIRING!!
I am kind of tired of typing now though, I will tell the whole thing tomorrow=)
English 111 Assignment?!
I am really in the mood of writing diaries today. Plus, posting my assignment on the web kind of safeguard the lost of it right? Hahaha…
Don't get me wrong, I will not do this to my diary all the time* just can't think of what to say at this point as my feelings kind of mingled~**
Homosexual Marriage in
The Supreme Judicial Court of Massachusetts recently legalized homosexual marriages on May 17, 2004, saying it was unconstitutional to allow only heterosexual couples to marry ("Gallagher").
Although this issue has been controversial over the last decade, Americans today are more lenient and accepting towards the issue of homosexual marriage compared to the past. Less pressure from society caused an increasing trend of homosexual marriage in
Today in general, many psychologists have a positive view towards homosexual marriage. From the past till now, psychologists have done much research on sexual orientation and have different reasons to explain this phenomenon. In the past, homosexuality was considered as abnormal, even a sin, and was explained by possessing a certain kind of mental disorder. Not until other psychologists proved that homosexuality is related to biological and environmental factors had the concept changed.
Some researchers put out a theory that sexual orientation may be due to abnormal androgen level during prenatal development in pregnancy (Wood, Wood, and Boyd 298). The androgen level may masculinize or feminize the brain of the developing fetus, making homosexuality more likely. Another theory suggested that certain genetic components contribute to sexual orientation (Wood, Wood, and Boyd 298). For example, “feminizing” genes, if activated during development, may cause homosexuality in men.
LeVay reported that a tiny area in the hypothalamus governing sexual behavior is about twice as large in heterosexual men as in homosexual men (Wood, Wood, and Boyd 298). In other words, brain structure has an influence on sexual orientation. Freud and other psychoanalysists believe that the tendency of homosexuality is somehow induced by childhood experience (Wood, Wood, and Boyd 299). If a boy prefers girls’ clothes and games in childhood, he has the tendency to be a homosexual. A preference to female playmates, referred to as temperament, also contribute to homosexuality (Wood, Wood, and Boyd 299). These theories help prove that homosexuals cannot control their sexual orientation any better than their skin color. Many psychologists, therefore, are accepting of homosexuality.
The ideas towards the problem of homosexuality are particularly extreme in religion; they also vary greatly across time and place. The world’s largest religions generally view homosexuality negatively, either quietly discouraging or explicitly forbidding. In contrary, some minority and lesser known religions view same-sex love and sexuality as sacred and blessed ("Homosexuality and Religion."). There are different points of view from both within the same religions and from religion to religion. The debatable points of view are divided into three major religions, Christianity, Judaism, and Islam, which have great influence and contribution towards this issue.
Traditionally, the majority of Christians and Jews are critical towards homosexual marriage, treating such behavior as sinful ("Homosexuality and Religion."). According to the Bible, God create Adam and Eve, but not two individuals of the same sex. They therefore believe, according to God’s will, that a man should eventually form unity with a woman. It is clearly stated in the Bible that homosexual marriage is wrong and against God’s will. However, today some denominations within these religions, such as Reform Judaism and the United Church of Christ, have accepted homosexuality ("Homosexuality and Religion."). They either argue that homosexuality is a natural attraction, or the Bible is wrongly interpreted ("Homosexuality and Religion."). Jesus Christ once preached that we should not judge by appearances, but should treat people fairly and equally. In other words, discriminating homosexuals are offensive. They therefore believe that same-sex marriage is allowed. The Islamic teachings are more consistent; the majority disapproves homosexuality and same-sex intercourse is a sin punishable by execution ("Homosexuality and Religion."). Death penalty is common in conservative Islamic nations for having same-sex intercourse ("Homosexuality and Religion."). Interesting enough, they now considered homosexuality as a natural attraction not against the Islamic law, while the physical action of same-sex intercourse is punishable ("Homosexuality and Religion."). Islam, in other words, is a religion that allows homosexual love as long as they do not have sexual intercourse.
Homosexual marriage could create a lot of social problems. The most direct and obvious problem is that reproduction is not possible in homosexual marriage. Without a channel to produce the next generation, the birth rate of
The Catholic Charities of Boston, one of the nation’s oldest adoption agencies, announced getting out of the adoption business on March 10, 2006 ("Gallagher"). The breaking news of
The reason why the issue of homosexual marriage is in such a controversy could only explained by, perhaps, the difference existing between persons. When discussing the issue, different people with different standards and moral values will judge differently. Emphasizing more on human rights, a person would argue that marriage a basic human right and an individual personal choice. We need to ponder our own choices but try to understand and respect the choices of others (Religious Tolerance). Emphasizing more on benefits of society, a person may criticize homosexual marriage as it creates social problems and chaos. While emphasizing more on religion, a person may use religious teachings to support his reasons on either accepting or disapproving same-sex marriage. All people have their own reasons, and we cannot judge whether their choice is right or wrong. They are just based on different values and perspectives. This issue will long be debatable as long as the difference among people existed, either in psychological, religious, social or other fields. The problem of homosexual marriage, therefore, will continues to be a contentious issue in society today with no apparent agreement in sight.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
:::GRAND OPENING:::
DiArY of RoYaLtY is born! From now on, it will be my friend accompanying my journey after MCS.
*Still remember I have a pink spotted diary starting from, I guess, Form 4. So stupid I was then, that the whole diary is almost about puppy love. But that's teenage :) In memory of my pink spotted diary, I choose this layout.*
