In 2 Years of time, I wrote tons of entries in Royal Diary I. In 2 years of time, not only I grew, but I changed. I become stronger. I become taller. I become smoother. I become faithful.
Here, I decided to turn over a new leaf. Start over a new diary, and it represents the new me. Here, I will continue to tell you my story after 2 years. What will happen to me? Read.
My only love. Love at first sight.
The way she shines, it bust be sure
that she is my Mrs. Right,
for me to secure.
Her style, her color, her smell,
a fad that everyone chases.
Her brand everyone could tell,
surounded by circles of praises.
Then another season falls,
and so changes the trend.
Vivienne Westwood, Gucci, or Dior?
My only love? Just a second. The end.
My only love? Is that possible or is that illusion. In the past, maybe my only love is easier to find. Just like your clothes, your watch, your house, your TV. Everything you will use until they are worn out. Because tradition is tradition. There is no trend. And clothes, watch or anything else will not change - they are just for use. Same as your love, he/she is just for money/housework. In the past, there may not be only love, because there is not much love. There is only a wife, and a need.
Now? People start talking about love. Not just love but only love. But it is no longer possible, because people are like goods, just as goods are like people. How often you buy new clothes, watches, shoes, mobiles, TV, glasses. Or even a house? They are no longer merely what they are. They are a status, a trend, a greed, a want. Just like your love. This second, he is your only love. But the next second? There is already a thousand of new possible love turning around you. Different brands. Different purposes. Different trends. Not even can you treat your objects with one heart. How can you treat a person as your only love?
To conclude, it is our shopping habits that affect our loving pattern. It is not your fault or your partner's fault if he cannot love you only. It is just a shopping habit. Not a big deal. So don't get too upset if you get dumped. It is nothing more than a TREND.
This is so FuNny. So TrUe. So IrOnIc.
我與上司的差別
當我花多一點時間──────我是遲鈍
當我的上司花多一點時間───他是謹慎
當我不想做事──────我是怠惰
當我的上司不想做事───他是太忙
當我自發做不是交辦事情───我是越界
換我上司做同樣的事─────他是創新
當我忽視小禮節───我是粗魯
換我上司忽視────他是大方不拘小節
當我配合上司───────我是拍馬屁
換我上司討好他的上司───他是配合
當我開會時發言───我是多嘴
換我上司發言────他是發表高見
當我堅持立場────────我是頑固
換我上司採取同樣的立場───他是有原則
當我努力上進──────我是愛表現
我上司有同樣的表現───他是勤勞打拼
當我精神奕奕───────我是裝模作樣
換我上司有同樣的表現───他是渾身是勁
當我發燒唔舒服──────咋病
當我的上司發燒唔舒服───捱病
當我化妝扮靚──────發姣
當我的上司化妝扮靚───內外兼備
為什麼會有這麼大的差別 !!!
Chocolate Cheese Cake!
My first father's day cake, but it became a birthday cake :) Baking a cake is really not easy. Tiring mixing all the cream cheese and chocolate. I think it was a bit too cheesy, but then the outlook was attractive isn't it? This is already a very good cake as a first one. Glad to know that my friend likes it XD
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Siukwan's Recipe Try Out - ROUND 1!
Sweet Egg Pudding!
Always wanted to make something, and today I finally got the time to! I chose this dessert as a drill (because it was quite easy to make). Luckily I didn't screw up. And I tried, it tasted wonderful!!! Not too sweet, not too heavy. 
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Japanese Summer Salad!
My summer time favorite snack. Healthy. Light. Yummy. See how colorful it was! XD
I even used my secret Mayonnaise recipe. Even more yummy!!! Try it at home yourself. It was very simple to make!
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Vegetarian Shark Fin!
Last but not least, my dad's favorite as a promise I owed during father's day. A little bit too thick, there is still room for improvement. The taste and the outlook passed though right?? XD Um,,my conclusion? I am a cooking beauty
(= V =)!
Rich in wisdom and charm, you are romantic and deep thinking and your intuition guides you strongly. Avoid procrastination and your stingy attitude towards money. Keep your sense of humor about life. The Snake would be most content as a teacher, philosopher, writer, psychiatrist, and fortune teller.
You may want money,
But actually what you need is happiness
You may want to be loved
But actually what you need is love
You may want a house,
But actually what you need is a home
You may want a phone,
But actually what you need is a listener
You may want sex
But actually what you need is a partner
You may want a lover,
But actually what you need is a husband
When we were young, we always want a lot. Toys, snacks, food, stories, pets. We are shadowed in the illusion of what we want is what we need. What we want is what we should have in order for us to be happy.
As we grow, we will discover that we have been blinded by this illusion. We do not chase after wants, we chase after needs. Once you have the power to turn your wants into needs, then you become happy. You become in peace with yourself. You become indifference to death. Because your life is already what you want. Needs can satisfy you more than wants (If you have the right needs in mind).
You need achievement. You need knowledge. You need love. You need acknowledgement. You need friendship. You need food. You need safety. You need comfort. You need confidence. You need happiness. You need excitement.
These needs cause wants. You want to be beautiful. You want to be successful. You want to be a millionaire. You want to socialize. You want different games and toys. You want to have a high quality of life.
But if you are just able to see the wants but not needs, you will be out of track. And eventually, you will be chasing after something wrong/extreme: money, fame, status, weight. You sacrifice what you need for what you think you wanted. Life become miserable. And happiness is away from you forever.
Happy Father's Day. On this day filled with love and warmth, there will be someone in the world feeling sad. I just read a youtube comment "15 June is the memorance of a girl kidnapped and raped by her father for 15 years." I deeply felt the meaning of "where there is happiness, there is sadness; where there is love, there is hatred". I can understand how it feels to be left out by the world, to be the unlucky one. The taste of envy is sour. But it is stupid to think that you are the most unlucky in the world after a wound. We must learn to heal ourselves, then others, after every obstacle or difficulty. It is stupid to turn a happy father's day into a curse just because of your personal experience. Forget about the past. And start over. This is what you can control at this point.
I once wrote, there are four kinds of people on the world. Ones who are blissed, and are thankful. Onces who are blissed, but are ignorant about it. Once who are unlucky, but strive to survive. Once who are unlucky and grumble about it. Be the third kind. Treasure your life that are short as a shooting star. What you feel is actually subjective, and you can change your mindset if you want to. Have a new attitude. Enjoy what you have. Fight for what you lack. Be what you want to be. A happy person.
My classmate's father has a point there. The most important thing for decision making is to know yourself. Understand your values and point of views. The reason why we feel confused is because there are too much information, too much options. We can limit the scope of options if we know our values and understand ourselves. What we treasure? What we care? This is a major principle for living a full life.
The more I experience, the more I understand myself. I start to know my motivation to study. It is because of the satisfaction I got from the grades, the sense of achievement. Working now, I sometimes felt content, sometimes felt bored. It is because the result of what I do may not be immediate all the time. My boss may give me a pat on the back once in a while. But then, some tasks like to research for the world's private equity companies and compile a list, the result maybe years later (well, just a bit of exaggeration). Is my motivation only based on this sense of achievement I got from others? What I do is only due to others? To me, it seems risky this way.
Motto: A cup half drank can be half full. A piece of cheese can have up and down.
Back to work after a long weekend due to Dragon Boat Festival. Nothing too exciting during the weekend, exactly what I needed. A little shopping with my mum. A relaxing message in China with my family. A sumptuous meal.
I have been home for about a month. But it seems I have never left. I am so used to being with my parents, so used to home. The more I think about life in USA, the more it seems impossible to me. How can I stand this all alone? How can I live without protection? Well, I should know, when it happens, everything is possible. No matter how tired you are, you need to stay strong and move on with life. That's why I always believe in marriage. Because it gives you a home, a place to rest.
The more I get used to life in HK, the more fearful I become. I am afraid that one day this vacation will end. And the day is coming sooner and soomer everyday. It is just like back to reality, like midnight for Cinderella. Afterall it is all a dream, and it cannot last forever. I always remind myself these days, to recall memories in Michigan. To remind myself not to be too laid back, too dependent, too relaxed. Because one day, you will have to go.
Back to Hong Kong, I lost my ability to write what I feel again. Maybe I never know how I feel in Hong Kong. I never have time to think about that. Everyday the same things just happen for everyone around you. And also, the same things to you. Then, you will start to hynotize yourself until you don't feel anything. Just living every day like a robot. But, at least I feel completed at home. At least I feel home.
Day by day, the result for Business School is closer to be revealed. Please stop tormenting and torturing me. Please stop haunting me every night. No matter what, at this point, I just wish to know the result as soon as possible. Because waiting is such a pain. Yet, the only thing I can do right now is wait. I have tried my best. And I really believe God will do the rest. No matter what the result is, I will be happy. Because either way is a light from God, that show me the way to the future. That descide what shall I do.
